I dreamt that Josiah’s Mother, Stephanie, and I were first talking to an extremely sweet woman whose voice embodied a feeling of sincere compassion and love.

Then the dream shifted as Stephanie and I walked outside the building we were in to a pier-like bridge stone bridge over the ocean that was made of stone.

This bridge was over the ocean and ran parallel to shore.

I was following Stephanie across the bridge and feeling very out of place and scared.

Then the bridge ended in front of Stephanie and she stopped but I didn’t see the end. Stephanie decided to jump into the ocean and swim to shore. I was getting very scared now. I tried to follow her but I couldn’t jump from the spot where she jumped from. The water where she jumped in was beautifully blue and calm and she easily swam to shore.

Distraught, I didn’t know what to do up on the bridge. I walked back towards the building but was losing sight of Steph so I jumped in the water finally as well, but the ocean for me was muddy, choppy, and difficult to swim through. Somehow I made it to shore and woke up.

Stephanie has less than two months left of her pregnancy with our first child. She thinks perhaps this dream relates to my feelings anticipating the birth–that she jumps into it fully but I can’t go with her. All I can do is my best to stay close to her and try to support her through it.